Deep

Shit I thought this years A's team had a ton of depth. And really, we do. But seriously, the rays are just fuckin swimming in talent. I mean they lose Iwamura and they just think, "well may as well stick aybar there, well zobrist could probably handle 2nd...wait we have brignac just rotting away in the minors maybe him." and while this is happening the 2nd baseman who was at the very end of their depth charts at 2nd base, adam kennedy, is pretty much far and away our best hitter right now. wat the fuck man, why cant we be the rays already.

Grandmother died

On my father's side. Really weird, I'll just out and say it, I never really got along with her. She always annoyed me. I was probably her worst grandchild. Never called her, barely talked to her, kind of rejected her side of the family. She was always nice to me though, thats what grandparents do i guess, i was her only grandson too, she always reminded me of that. My dad sounds pretty bad, talked to him on the phone. His words show he is tryin to stay composed, but you can hear in his voice how shaken he is. I just got dropped back off at school today, kinda coincidental, sister an mother were actually driving down to LA to see my grandmother so they dropped me off along the way. Now my dad will follow down sometime in the next few days an will pick me up. what does one do at a funeral. i remember my grandpas, it was horrid. since my mom is the oldest in her family i had to sit in the very front with her. me an my sister didnt know what to do, everyone, family and friends (there was a ton, in excess of 100 easily id say) payed their respects, and then gave an apology to me or shook my hand. I didnt want that, to be honest i didnt feel half as bad as those people. they were crying, their pain was so clearly visible, for me it was just grandpa, a relative, sure, but again not someone i was ever really close too. it was the most awkward moment of my life, me an kayo just kinda laughed, we didnt really know what else to do. hopefully this wont be like this. one, dad is the youngest in his family, an two, it wont be a buddhist ceremony, though i don know how other funerals are done. i wonder if this will effect me more later. i feel kind of sad rite now but its been really sudden. with grandpa there was a kind of quick fall into illness and a slow progression downwards after that. this time, yea she was old and havin problems, but nothing really that made me even consider her life in danger. really, this looks to be a different kind of week.

4 hours later...

and 7 pages neatly stapled together, I am done. and wow, is this a piece of crap i have put together. like, if there is an assignment that will get me kicked out, it is this one. i think i missed the boat that bad. for the record, if u fail one assignment in this class you fail the class. bullshit, i know, no one said syntax is easy i guess. but yea, gonna be one hell of a weekend, tryna relax while knowing someone is grading this paper, with my academic fate in their hands pretty much. well, worst that happens is i fail, ucla drops me, an i come back here to finish my career..............ok im gonna go cry myself to sleep now.

How wrong I was

My syntax homework is only two sections. I finished the first section yesterday in about twenty minutes, I glanced at the rest and figured it was cake, professor did mention this assignment was a bit easier than normal. I've been puttin it off all day today, figurin, eh, I'll just power through it at some point. Oh the naivety. Syntax, no matter how much I hope, pretty much is never simple. This homework seems to deal heavily with s-selections or theta-roles or whatever you wanna call em, point being, I suck with these things. Can never figure out how many are assigned, can never figured out what exactly is being assigned, can never figure out what they actually do once they finally have been assigned. Also, I hate the word "it." Like seriously, why the fuck do we have such a useless word. wtf is it anyway , placeholder seems retarded. it also complicates the shit out of my homeworks, thats no doubt the root of this frustration. you know what just made me chuckle, in the last few sentences every time I used "it" it(!) could be read either as the normal meaningless expletive it(!) happens to be, or as the actual word "it" that I am discussing. anyway, next week...next week I won't leave the whole assignment to the last few days. Do I mean that? No, but maybe it'll happen.

Garza tomorrow...

We got swept by the tigers, now we at least will come out even against the rays. sometimes I hate baseball. Tomorrow Garza goes against the A's. I'm sad I can't watch. If it hasn't been clear, Garza is my favorite ray, hes pretty much my favorite non-A's ballplayer outside of ichiro and joe fuckin blanton...yea i still like zito too. But anyway, I mean come whats not to like, hes great to watch cause of his ridiculous stuff, hes fuckin crazy in the head, and his bio photos never fail to crack me up. o well, i cant really complain, did get to see him at the colesium. jesus christ garza had a 6.24 k/9 last year. doesnt look like walks are a huge issue with him either. hows someone with such great velocity and an awesome curveball get blanton level results. decent groundball rates, limits homers well too. dude matt garza is basically fuckin joe blanton, i would never have guessed. i guess the difference is upside, garza, as mentioned, has crazy stuff, you gotta imagine he'll strike a few more guys out...

Wat just happened

FUCK. i had this long ass post advocating trading for chin-lung hu, mostly involving yun chi chen and me chuckling at chinese names and ballplayers in general. then i got curious an checked my gmail, which somehow annihlated my blogger session, the two are connected somehow i gues. poop. well long story short, do i think he could solve our SS problem? no. do i think hed be a really amusing player that would require nothing to acquire? hell yea. his track record is solid, suposedly plays good D, and the dodgers seem to fuckin hate him. they gonna need outfield help when pierre realizes that he sucks again...if only we still had matt murton. just offer em one of the many players we refuse to use, send denorfia or somthin. bottom line, ocab fuckin pisses me off, and crosby doesnt help things out. i may be the last fan chin-lung hu has in this world, but really, it cant be that bad of a dice roll to take rite?

Me buy this

Remember how I speculated about getting a psp, and how dissidia would probably break my last line of defense when it comes to buying one. consider one bought. My one gripe is that is awfully late in the summer, though on the positive, it is post birthday for me, so cash restraint shouldnt be a problem. between that, the remake of disgaea 2 for psp, and other games i fully intend to purchase once i own the system, the grade forcast for my first quarter at LA is looking pretty fuckin bleak.