japanese has lost its fun

this is why i hate school. japanese was never school. it was a grand cultural reclamation project. it was something more to me, the grade at the end didnt matter. so of course, my best class was always japanese, it was the only class i actually wanted to go to and learn abotu and improve in. except that feeling is almost all gone for some reason. im not really learning anymore, just putting tons of symbols and words into my short term memory. im suposed to make a 3 min speech tomorrow. mine will be a minute if im lucky. just cant write anything. assignment is so stupid. dont really care at this point. fml. and i hate that expression. but seriously. fml. id say i wish i could sleep forever but, lately my dreams have been horribly unpleasant.