weee San Diego

sooo SD let me in. Big ass envelope with really nothing in it. Wasn't that excited, to be perfectly honest. It makes me sad, I should be excited, but it confirms with myself that this wasn't the envelope I been waiting for, I'm once again setting my sights high. Maybe too high again. But hey, at least we got a good sign early here. Takes me back to two years ago. Which then makes me think, christ, wtf SD. I got that letter last I think. Or no, I checked it online last. I saw that berk an LA rejected me, so i was gettin scared about SD, though still confident I would get in. And then I saw I didnt. God I was shocked. That rejection pissed me off the most. Berk and LA, even though I so badly wanted to get in, deep down I was a bit afraid I wasn't good enough to get in. That thought never really crossed my mind regarding SD. So yea, getting in now doesn't really feel like an accomplishment, it feels like righting a wrong two years behind schedule. Well, if they let me in, at least I might have a shot at the other two. hopefully. guh. if only if only, right? Highschool was just such a mess. Dug myself so many holes, but I guess, with this acceptance, I've at least got a hand out of one of the bigger ones. Here we go, most uplifting thought I've had in years: I won't be at Santa Cruz next year, that much, I can be certain of.