I really need to stop comparing myself to others

Ever get lost in the whole Nature vs. Nurture debate? I do, all the time really. Not arguing with anyone, just speculating what it means to me. Just things like, what if I had been born first. What if I were the older sibling, would I be this quiet of a person still.

It's interesting to me. No, rib never protected me or anything, but I hid in her shadow all the time when we were younger, deflecting attention to her. I remember I never realized this until she left for school, and I was the only kid at home. Whenever my parents friends/family/whoever came over, all of a sudden it was me getting the questions, me having to interact with these people. I hated it, still do really. And I dunno, I just look at rib sometimes and wonder how she can be so good at interacting with people she barely knows, and how I can barely hold a conversation with people I'm really close to.

It's fucking weird having a sibling. To me it just seems like we're so different from each other, but I guess in a lot of ways we're really similar. I dunno this is turning out really vague, less concrete than I was hoping for.

All right, I've thought this out. This is simply another sibling envy post. She's smarter than me, she's a sociable person, she's fairly independent, she makes friends easily...I dunno she's trying things out, she's figuring her shit out. My youth, on the other hand, is being wasted sitting in front of a computer being depressed. How to phrase this. My ceiling is replacement level. On my best day, I'm cliff pennington. I was a first round draft pick, had a bright future, all the potential to be a solid major league contributor. But for whatever reason, just didn't pan out. Didn't develop the power, never really ever hit. Yea I got a decent glove and can steal a few bases, but my skillset really limits me to a utility role. So yea, that's me, cliff pennington, replacement level infielder, may get a job warming the bench on some poor team like the A's, may just toil away at futility at sacramento until I realize my life is going nowhere and quit.

As a side note, this post turned out a lot better than expected. Was going down the tubes and then AAAA metaphor kicked in, I think that was a damn good salvage job. Couldn't really come up with a comparison for rib, I was thinking maybe greinke or hamilton, maybe ankiel or somthin, but she's only in the strange burnout phase right now, hasn't gotten that second wind of success that makes it a feel good story. So maybe she's rich harden, talented but on the DL.